His plan.

its amazing how quickly life changes. one minute you think everything is going according to your own plan, and then its not.

i feel like the month of july has shown me how out of control i really am. never in my wildest dreams would i have imagined everything that has happened in the past two weeks.

my plan: finish the summer selling pest control in salt lake city. move back to pocatello and into the grove apartments with lots of fun really fun couples and continue with another semester at ISU. find a job- maybe substitute teaching. continue visiting my parents, eating my moms food and rubbing my dads back. and just keep going with everything.

His plan: summer ended very early. my dad passed away much sooner than anyone expected. i know he has been sick for a long time and we all knew it was going to happen eventually, but i never would have guessed that it would happen now. when my mom called me that wednesday to tell me she took my dad to the er, i just thought it was another 'thing' and he would pop out of it. he has since october of 2006- why not now? we have been in pocatello or with family since then.

after my dad passed away, we decided it would be best if we moved in with my mom. not very expected but im so thankful we chose to. we moved all of our stuff on tuesday.

an hour after i called my landlords to see if we could get out of our contract i got a phone call..
in may i applied for an internship for what i thought would be the summer... after a long wait and and thinking i had no chance, i got that phone call telling me YES i got it.

the internship is for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. i will be working in their web design department.

the internship is for 6 months... after realizing that this internship would require me to take an entire year off of school (which we already took off last semester too) i decided to ask if they could postpone it. it is so amazing how i can see Heavenly Father's hand in my life right now. thankfully my new boss completely understood and told me he would love to see me in january.

so for now we will go to school and in january we will be moving to salt lake again. another blessing in this too, is that since it will be a new year, he said the internship could probably be extended even longer.

a few days after this phone call we got another one. sams mom told us that his grandma was given only a few days to live. we are heading to california tomorrow to say goodbye and attend another funeral.

i have been feeling so overwhelmed with life. but at the same time i feel like im not making any of the decisions. Heavenly Father is directing it all. i know he is. and i feel calm. i feel like no matter what happens it will be for the best. although nothing is going according to my plan, it is going according to His. and its for the best. and all i can do is laugh and have faith that it is His plan.

{thank you for all your love by the way. we couldnt get through this without everyone.}

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